Welcome to my new series: Youth! I’m gonna be real with y’all. I can’t be inspiring anymore. So no more posts like that, at least for now. This is gonna be sad, depressing, and boring just like the rest of my life, so buckle up buttercup, and let’s get caught up. How am I doing? I’ll tell you how I’m doing….
My dog had surgery 4 months ago, which I think you knew, and the lump they removed was cancerous, but they got it all, so while it may come back, she’s all good now. So, I’ve got that lurking in my mind, and I’m drowning in debt because of it. I was starting to get my card paid off, and then I bought 2 very expensive and rare K-pop albums that set me back again. Then my dog had problems with her eyes. After 1 trip to the emergency vet, one follow-up, and about $100 worth of medication she was finally starting to get better. Now however, I think she losing her sight because she’s majorly disoriented sometimes and I need to help her get on and off furniture. You are probably thinking, “Wow, that’s a lot.” Well guess what!? I’m not done yet!! Then someone started a rumor about Ravn from Oneus. He left for the sake of the other members, even though I don’t think he did anything wrong. And even though they said they are taking legal action against the person who started the rumor, we are still waiting for the investigation results. So that was 3 days of crying, but I’m still not done. Then I went and got bloodwork done.
Turns out my cholesterol was slightly outside the normal range. Not enough that my doctor was worried, but enough that she didn’t want it to get any worse. So, I can’t even eat the sadness away. I need more hours at work because I want to get my own car, but it’s the slow season at work. Sunny messed up the pole bending pattern at riding lessons in both runs the other night; Ravn’s not coming back. People on Twitter are acting like immature children, and they aren’t even part of our fandom, so idk why they even give a shit about the situation. They must feed off drama or something. It’s uncalled-for, disgusting, and inexcusable behavior.
And I’m still depressed because my thyroid level was off. But since that can cause anxiety, depression, and tiredness, they don’t want to change my other meds till it’s normal, which makes sense, but I hate it. Then I joined a dating app, but I deleted it 5 days later because honestly, how can I even think about dating at a time like this!!!!! I was watching Susan Boyle singing I Dreamed a Dream, and a few spots stood out to me, so I decided maybe it was time to get this series moving.
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
I Dreamed a Dream
When hope was high and life worth living…
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted….
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream, I dreamed
So yeah. That’s how I’m doing. Anyway, here is a quick summary of this series. Starting with a k-quotes that I totally forgot about and am now super excited to write. Then a music Monday for the song Childhood by The Rose. Followed by the main post and finishing with an outro just like a proper K-pop album. I’ll see you guys soon!!!
Sincerely,
LIBD
