Welcome back! Part three, who’s excited? Just me? Don’t forget I’m not a scientist or ecologist, so if any of my info is incorrect, please tell me. Okay, let’s jump right in. Ecosystems are like a car. If the oil needs to be changed, it’ll still run, just maybe not at peak performance. If there’s an issue with the AC, that’s unfortunate but not the end of the world. If there’s an issue with the engine, the car may not run at all.
I’m sure you’ve heard about ecosystems before and are familiar with how they work. The whole concept of regenerative agriculture is essentially just restoring the ecosystem that already exists. But today I want to talk about keystone species. They are nature’s engine. The car will not function efficiently without it, and nature cannot function properly without them. Some examples of keystone species are beavers, wolves, elephants, and bats.
If any of these were to go extinct, nature would be all out of balance. One example is wolves; they hunt prey. Prey eats grass. If the wolves aren’t there to control the population, they will overgraze the land and starve to death when there’s nothing else to eat. Another thing wolves do is protect herd health. By going after the sick and weak animals, they stop diseases from spreading to other members of the herd.
Without wolves, the rest of their ecosystem would fall into chaos and potentially be ruined. Moving on from wolves, that’s why the BLM rounds up Mustangs. I don’t like it either. Horses get hurt, and some end up sold to slaughter most likely, but they have no natural predators to keep the populations under control. Humans have to step in to protect them even if it’s not a perfect system. But just like humans can help ecosystems, we can also hurt them.
For example, the Great Pacific Garbage Patch. Home to the Laysan albatross as well as numerous other wildlife, and oh, did I mention the 1.6 million square kilometers of trash and debris. A lot of that debris is microplastics or other plastic, and it must look tasty because it’s found in the stomachs of almost every albatross that dies from starvation. It also causes a high mortality rate in chicks.
Wow, that got real depressing real fast, didn’t it? But fear not my readers, because I would never leave you without a positive takeaway! Which brings me to a fun little project called TeamSeas. They managed to remove 34 million pounds of trash from our ocean when it wrapped up in 2024.
But just because it ended doesn’t mean it’s over. The Ocean Cleanup is another organization with a goal to clean up 90% of all floating plastic pollution by 2040! I don’t know about you, but that sounds like a light at the end of the tunnel to me. It’s not just the ocean people are standing up for and trying to save either. For all the deforestation that’s happened, the Forest Stewardship Council has 160 million hectares of forest certified for sustainable forest practices, allowing them to stay forested. That means keeping ecosystems healthy and intact.
It can feel overwhelming. I feel overwhelmed by all that’s wrong in the world, but then I think of these organizations still fighting for a better tomorrow, and it makes me want to fight too! It’s never too late for us to fix our mistakes, to know better, and to do better. But we can’t fix a problem if we don’t know it’s there, so even just raising awareness really is a huge help! If we all care and all work together, we have the power to make a better tomorrow. We don’t have to accept the way things are.
We’ve got one more section, and it’s all about animals, so I hope to see you there. Until next time…
Sincerely,
LIBD
Author: LIBD
But I’m busy and poor
Hey guys, I’m so glad you came back! Once again, I want to add my disclaimer. I’m not an expert, just a human being trying to raise awareness. If my stats or information are incorrect, please let me know so I can fix them. If you missed part one, no biggie. I was just talking about regenerative agriculture and its benefits. Proper farming practices are just one piece of the puzzle, but like I said last week, you don’t have to be a farmer to make a difference.
Single-use plastics and food waste are other issues. I get it. Zip-lock bags are wonderful and convenient. Tap water isn’t as appealing as bottled water. Sometimes I forget I have food in the fridge, and it goes bad. And honestly, my pork chops were inedible and better off in the trash. I really do understand, but I was shocked by the numbers.
According to one source I found, America wastes about 133 billion pounds of food a year. You can help by only buying what you intend to eat, composting, and taking home food at restaurants. My dad and his wife keep containers in their car sometimes, so when they go out, they don’t have to use the styrofoam or plastic ones that restaurants give you.
Now that we’ve covered food, let’s move on to what we drink. It’s time to talk about bottled water vs. tap water. According to an article from the Natural Resources Defense Council, there are pros and cons to both. Some houses have lead pipes that can potentially contaminate the tap water, and some bottled water is just tap water in a bottle. There’s also the fact that bottled water can have microplastics in it from the packaging.
So, if you are worried about tap water… Get a Brita pitcher or tank like I have and treat yoself to a nice reusable water bottle. Brita also makes water bottles with filters in them. I have one of those, and I love that I can fill it up anywhere and know that I’m drinking filtered water. But bottled water is just 1 of many single-use plastics.
Let’s talk about laundry. The average American family uses approximately 13 bottles of liquid laundry detergent per year. Nationwide, this contributes to nearly 700 million to 1 billion plastic laundry jugs being discarded annually. That’s a lot! And I was using detergent, fabric softener, AND scent boosters.
My laundry smelled amazing, but at what cost? So, I looked for something more sustainable. I switched to Earth Breeze laundry detergent sheets, and I love them. They come in little sheets, and you just throw them in with the clothes, and they dissolve in the water. Exactly the same clean that I got from detergent. I quit using the fabric softener and scent beads. My laundry doesn’t smell as strongly of lavender and vanilla when it’s clean, but it’s clean, and that’s enough for me. It didn’t end with plastics though.
Paper products are another household item I want to talk about because deforestation is another very real threat. I switched to bamboo toilet paper and paper towels, and while it may not be the best toilet paper and paper towels I’ve ever used, they’re definitely not the worst, and they get the job done. If you want to make sustainable paper product purchases, look for an FSC certification or anything that certifies a low environmental impact.
Another switch I made happened when I learned you should replace your toothbrush every 3 to 4 months, and I thought that was kind of wasteful. Thankfully, my dad’s wife introduced me to the Nada toothbrush. It’s aluminum, and you just replace the heads. Don’t throw them away. You send them back, and they will recycle them for you. It’s a bit pricier and something I may have to phase out when my rent increases, but it is a good option if you can afford it.
There are sustainable alternatives for a lot of things if you know what to look for. Maybe showering every other day instead of every day to save water. You can also donate to eco-friendly causes if you have the financial means to. I like to donate to the World Wildlife Fund, but there are lots of good organizations out there.
I know this is all a lot. Do your research, ask questions, and be curious. You don’t have to do it all. You don’t have to change your lifestyle overnight. Just think of one thing you can do to make a change. You may think you are just 1 person, and you can’t make a difference, but 100 people doing just 1 little thing adds up.
I’ll see you next week when we are going to talk about ecosystems. I’m sure you’ve heard of them, but how much do you really know? Tune in to find out.
Sincerely,
LIBD
Welcome to my Ted Talk
Hey guys, welcome to part 1. Do you like the title? I thought it was funny. I know it’s different from my usual posts, but it’s equally important, so try to stick with me. Remember, I’m not an expert, so if I misspeak or get something incorrect, please let me know. Alright, did you find a comfy seat? Then let’s do this. *Clears Throat*
What if I told you the solution to global warming has been under our feet this entire time? Would you believe me? The answer is dirt, or more specifically, soil. Healthy soil, and the plants that grow in it, absorb carbon. Now you are probably wondering, with all the farms and fields around, how could global warming be an issue?
Excellent question. The main reason is that not all soil is healthy. Two of the main approaches to farming today are industrial agriculture and regenerative agriculture. If you are interested in the specific science behind regenerative vs industrial, there is a fantastic documentary called Kiss the Ground. It can be found on Prime Video and is definitely worth watching.
Soil (healthy soil) is like a carbon sponge. Industrial Agriculture damages soil. It relies heavily on chemical pesticides. Regenerative agriculture heals the soil and doesn’t use as many chemicals. But how exactly does regenerative agriculture heal the soil?
You are just full of good questions today! The big difference is tilling. Digging up and disturbing the soil destroys the quality. It affects carbon absorption as well as water absorption. No-till farming creates minimal disruption of the soil. It has better absorption and won’t make the soil turn dusty or dry.
Another cool feature about regenerative agriculture is the animals. Everyone thinks cows are horrible, but their cousins, the bison, roamed for many a year without contributing to global warming. Regenerative farming with animals is all about restoring the natural ecosystems that were already in place. You don’t have to do anything except allow nature to take its course.
We will talk more about ecosystems later, but cows aren’t the problem. It’s how the cows are raised that is causing problems. If you rotate your livestock and stop overgrazing, it allows the ecosystem to not only recover but to thrive! We don’t have to stop eating steak and burgers. You’re welcome.
The best part about regenerative agriculture though, is that it can work anywhere and everywhere, even land that has turned into desert can be restored. It’s the perfect system because there is literally no downside!
Now, if you’re like me, you’re thinking, “This is brilliant! And so simple! Why is everyone not doing this?!” Well, while statistically regenerative agriculture farms tend to do better, it takes time. For farmers, time is literally money. You can’t wake up one morning and switch. It takes time, and it’s a risk during the transition period. I don’t know about you, but I’m in no position to take risks with money right now. Not when I already have a guaranteed income. So don’t be too hard on farmers who choose industrial agriculture.
There’s so much more to this than I can get into here, so if you think this is as amazing as I do, then I highly recommend you check out the documentary. It has all the science and the numbers and even more. I wish I could make everyone watch it, because it’s a game-changer.
But the good news is you don’t have to be a farmer to make a difference. You can support regenerative agriculture and make other environmentally friendly changes in your everyday life. Going green doesn’t have to be expensive. I’ll see you next week to talk about other environmental challenges and how we can do our part to make a difference. No matter how busy you are or how tight your budget is, you can make a difference. Till next time…
Sincerely,
LIBD
Intro: Environmental Series
Hey y’all! This is a bit different than my usual genre of post, but it’s a subject that is very important to me. I promise I won’t go all science teacher on you. I’m no expert, just a girl who cares and is trying her best to make a difference.
This is going to be divided into 4 parts. Part 1 will be about regenerative agriculture. I know that sounds complicated, but it’s actually super interesting, and I can’t wait to tell you about it. Part 2 will be about how to support the environment even if you are busy and poor like me. Part 3 is about ecosystems. The last part will be about animal conservation.
As I said before, I’m no expert. If anything I say is incorrect or inaccurate, please let me know. The purpose of this isn’t to give you all the answers. It’s to introduce concepts and ideas that will hopefully spark your own curiosity and encourage you to seek out answers and information for yourself.
Saving the environment is about more than reusable water bottles, paper straws, and recycling. Those are all great things, but there’s more we can be doing, and it’s not as hard as you think. I’m really looking forward to this series, and I hope you tag along. I’ll see you in a week for part one.
Sincerely,
LIBD
I Wish I Was More… Just More
I wasn’t sure what to write about. I thought about songs. I’m listening to Cough Syrup by Young the Giant as I write this. It’s on repeat. It feels right. But nothing made me feel inspired. Then Chat GPT gave me the idea to just write about my life and what I’m going through right now and where I’m at. So, I’m sorry it’s not inspiring or exciting, but it’s legit. Are you ready?
Well, first off, I asked my doctor to give me a referral to weight management. I don’t want a beach body. I just want to be able to get up off the floor and low chairs without turning it into an ordeal. It’s humiliating. I would also like to have obesity removed from my medical record. It was for a while, but they added it again. My doctor was happy to give me a referral; she said she thought it could be a great resource for me. All I know is that eating healthy and working out isn’t working out with my depression, and I need all the help I can get.
In other medical news, my psychiatrist finally put her foot down. I’m going back to counseling, but not till September because that’s the soonest her office has available!! But I’m on a wait list because if I have to do it, I would like to get it over with. They only do 10-12 sessions, so when she told me that, I was sold. I don’t want this to become a thing.
She increased my buspar to 3 times a day, and that’s helped get my anxiety under control. Seriously, it’s soooo much better, but my depression is still dragging me down. Everything is so freaking hard. Making food is so hard. And my psychiatrist says part of my problem could be diet and exercise. She wants me to go for walks, like, outside. I do occasionally because I downloaded Pokémon Go again (just reached level 54), and so sometimes I go Pokémon hunting. Maybe I will tomorrow.
So, as I said, I do still have Cough Syrup playing on repeat. From the very beginning of the song, it’s just so relatable. “Life’s too short to even care at all, whoa-oh-oh I’m losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control”. That’s how I feel every day. Then into the chorus, where it’s like they read my mind. “If I could find a way to see this straight, I’d run away to some fortune that I should have found by now”. I just feel like I should be more than this by now. That my life should be more than this by now, you know?
Then finally near the end, it says, “And so I run now to the things they said could restore me. Restore life the way it should be”. I feel like I’m grasping at straws trying to get my life together. But nothing’s working. And the thing about seeing weight loss doctors and counselors is that they can’t do the work for you. All my life I’ve been told I’m lazy. So, if that is the real problem, then what if I’m just doomed? I don’t want to be doomed. It’s just so hard, and I’m worried I won’t be able to follow through.
On a brighter note, Kota is still kicking. I brought her to work with me the other day, and she added some new members to her fan club. I only bring her on the weekends now though, because she whines and occasionally barks when I step away from the desk, and it’s annoying. So I stopped bringing her on weekdays except for every once in a while.
I realized food is the only thing that makes me happy anymore, but not just any food. Unhealthy food. And it’s not good. I had chocolates for dinner one evening. I don’t know if you know this, but chocolate is not dinner. It’s getting out of control. That’s why I asked for the referral. They couldn’t get me in until July!! It’s alright though, I’m on a wait list for that too.
I just wish life wasn’t so hard, you know. I wish I were better, stronger, more responsible, or just more……. Well, more. But alas, I’m just me. So am I screwed? Tune in next time to find out!!! No, I’m just kidding. I always say the fun is in the mystery, but I guess mystery isn’t always fun. I hope you guys are hanging in there. Wish me luck, and hope life starts going your way if it hasn’t been lately. Let’s just take it 24 hours at a time and hope for the best. Until next time…
Sincerely,
LIBD
Hindsight
Hey y’all. How’s it going? It’s been super cold and snowy here, but I’m trying to stay warm. I’ve been thinking a lot about hindsight. We all know it’s 20/20, but it seems to be a recurring theme in my life. I think mxmtoon said it best in the song ” Growing Pains. “
You and I aren't so different
Hindsight has perfect vision
You don't even know all the places that you'll go
But I'm sorry that you feel so alone
Because that’s the problem with hindsight. It’s essentially useless. By the time you have it, you can’t actually use it. It just taunts you and mocks you. I often say I wish I could go back to the first time I thought I was fat so I could enjoy being skinny. But I can’t do that, so what good does it do me?
One time, someone asked me if I could give my younger self some advice, what would it be? This was my answer… “Girl, you better suck it up and get it together because this is nothing. Your life is going to go sooo much worse. Save your tears for a few years. You’re going to need them all”. That apparently was not the right answer, but I think younger me would appreciate a heads-up.
I’ve said before life has a funny way of working itself out in some way or another, but I’ve also said that knowing everything will be okay doesn’t help me. I say it’s like if you say you need money and someone says they’ll give you 100, but not right now. It’s useless. I still think mxmtoon said it best in the song…
Everything's gonna get better, everything's gonna get worse
When it gets hard, remember that's the way it always works
I feel like this song may be more useful than hindsight, but maybe it’s not actually useless. Because what I should have done is what I’m doing now. What I shouldn’t have done is what I stopped doing. So maybe hindsight isn’t totally useless after all. I’m sure I’m going to make more mistakes, but if I learn from them and grow from them, then it’s not a waste at all. In his song The Hard Way Anson Seabra said,
Sometimes you have to touch the flame to know it burns
Sometimes you have to fall in love to know it hurts
And somebody told me once that hearts were made to break
And sometimes the only medicine is in the pain
Yeah, some things you just have to learn
The hard way
Experience is the best teacher, and sometimes thatexperience sucks. I always joked that I was allergic to instructions as a kid. I liked to learn by doing, and a lot of times it was slow learning. In hindsight, I could have saved a ton of time by reading instructions, and now I do. I don’t just look at them either. I follow them, and it’s so much faster.
Maybe hindsight isn’t meant to save us, but I also don’t think it’s meant to mock us. It’s a tool to make our tomorrows better than our yesterdays. Instead of resenting it, I need to appreciate it because it’s what made me the person I am today. Not the best version of myself, but a better version of myself.
Thanks for reading. I did quietly put a small book out into the world recently, which feels weird to say out loud, but yeah… It’s called: The Line Between Determination and Stupidity. I added the link for anyone who wants to check it out. If you enjoyed this post, be sure to click that like button, and I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments. Until next time…
Sincerely,
LIBD
Announcement
You may have noticed it’s been a little while since my last post — that’s because I’ve been working on a top-secret project.
I’ve officially published my first book.
The chapters are short and reflective, kind of like a collection of blog posts woven together. Between each chapter is a musical interlude. Because of copyright, I can’t include lyrics the way I do for Music Mondays, so you’ll need to listen to each song separately — but they really help tie the message together.
So… what is it about?
It’s about growing up, being an adult, and all the things no one really prepares you for or talks about out loud. If you want to know more than that, you’ll have to check it out.
The book is pay what you want, with a minimum of $3. You may see $5 listed — that’s just a suggested amount — but please choose what feels right for you.
This project is really personal to me. I’m excited (and a little nervous) to finally share it with you. The book is called The Line Between Determination and Stupidity.
You can find it here:
Buy here → https://libd.gumroad.com/l/nqoxpr
Thank you for reading, and for being here.
Sincerely,
LIBD
Meet My Succulents
Hey guys! How is life treating you? I want to do something a little different today. So, a while back someone asked me to introduce my succulents here on my blog so that’s what I intend to do today. I will introduce each one with their name and personality profile. Let’s get started!

This is Carlito the Moonstone Succulent. I ordered him off of Etsy with a few others. One of which (Richard III) sadly died from root rot. Carlito had a bit of a rocky start when he got to me but he’s a fighter, and he’s still here. He’s finally starting to bounce back I think, but keep your fingers crossed for him.

This is baby Echo! She’s and Graptopetalum hybrid of some sort. Mommy Echo got renamed and lives with my friend now. When I got her, I noticed there was a new sprout smushed up against the edge of the pot she came in so I took it out to see if it would survive and she did! She’s pretty quiet.

This is Higgins! He’s a Vera Higgins. Poor fellow. He’s lost so many leaves and his color since he got repotted. Looks like I got another drama king. He looks alright despite dropping leaves so I’m optimistic he will bounce back. I’ve only had him a little over a month.

This is Grizabella, a graptoveria bashful. She’s new here. She just got moved to her first real pot today. She’s still got some dirt on her from her travels. I got her in my Succly monthly subscription box.

This is Fiona, the ghost echeveria. She was one of my first (one of the Etsy ones), and I’ve loved her since the first day. Her colors are just so pretty! She’s a tough cookie; she also got a pot change today. I damaged her roots in the transfer, but I’m hoping she has enough left to pull through. Long live Fiona!

This is Ted. He’s a chocolate soldier. Like Higgins he was named after Ted Lasso. He’s a lot bigger than I thought he would be. He certainly knows how to take up space. I love his fuzziness and the chocolate coloring in the leaves.

This is Cobbsworth, the cobweb houseleek! He just upgraded to a bigger pot today. Grizabella moved into his old pot. I was running out of room to water him, and I’m scared to get his cobwebs wet. He’s another low maintenance and fun little dude

Meet Penny! She’s a Coppertone Stonecrop. This is one independent plant. I water her when she looks dry and nothing phases her. Even if I stopped watering her, I feel like she could survive on willpower alone, but I’m not going to put that to the test. She had her first wrinkly leaf today, but I’m not even a little concerned about her.

This is Casper. A variegated ghost plant/drama queen. When I repotted him, he lost it. I thought he was dying. He started dropping leaves like there’s no tomorrow. He could probably use a pot upgrade, but I’m terrified to ever move him again. EVER! He may actually die the next time just to spite me for moving him again.

This is the Magical Mr. Mistoffelees! My zebra plant. I was so excited when I got him. I’ve only had him for about a week or 2. He came with Grizabella, but he’s still waiting to move to a real pot. I have some more small pots I just got to get one out. I thought about using a blue one but I was afraid it would be too big.
It’s definitely been a learning process. For example, succulent soil should not have woodchips in it. The woodchips retain moisture which can cause root rot. When Richard III died and I went to throw him away I found 2 huge woodchips tangled up in all the roots. I have a few leaves I saved from him, so I’m going to see if I can grow a new one.
Exciting Update! Both of the leaves I salvaged from Richard III are sprouting roots!!! That means I may be able to bring him back from the dead or at least have a Richard IIII lol. I’ll post a picture on Facebook once I have an actual baby succulent, but the roots are looking super promising!! Keep your fingers crossed for him.
Also, if your succulent looks sick it’s tempting to water it. Don’t. Trust me. Water it only when the soil feels bone dry, and even then. don’t overdo it. I use an app to track my watering schedule. They don’t like to be micromanaged. Always wait a few days after repotting before you actually water it. They can be dramatic.
Well, I hope you enjoyed today’s post. I had a ton of fun writing it. Which one of my succulents is your favorite? I would love to hear from you guys in the comments. Thank you for reading and hanging out here today; I hope you have a great rest of your week! I’ll see you next time!
Sincerely,
LIBD
The Frog, The Water, And The Burnout
Like the title? I was inspired by Charlie Mackesy’s book. Before we start today post about dealing with burnout, I want to give a shoutout to my international readers. WordPress allows me to see which countries are viewing my content, and right now my top views are coming from some surprising places. Shout out to my readers in India and Singapore, thank you so much for checking out my blog and reading. Additional shoutouts (besides the US) go to the UK, Iraq, Cambodia, Myanmar, New Zealand, and Sweden. I hope my Google Translate plugin is doing a good job if you aren’t reading it in English. I appreciate all of you.
Today’s post is about a parable of sorts. It says that if you put a frog in boiling water, it will jump out. But if you put it in cool water and slowly turn up the temperature, it won’t notice the danger until it’s too late. I don’t know if it’s true. I’m an animal lover and not interested in testing the validity of the metaphor.
What I do know is that burnout is real, and that it doesn’t happen in a day. When things are going alright and you have a bad day, you know, “This is bad. I’m so stressed and overwhelmed.” When you are working working working 2 jobs and trying to make your blog/jewelry business successful, and don’t get a break, you don’t realize how not okay you are until it’s too late.
Then you find yourself unable to do anything because your brain and body are waving the white flag saying, “Please stop.” Then you can’t do anything. You have this list of all the things you know need to be done, but you can’t bring yourself to make anything happen. So, I just sat there feeling like a failure. I think, “If I can’t do my dishes, how am I ever going to go to Iceland?” It doesn’t really make sense, but it’s how I felt.
So, I did nothing for 2 days. I worked my short shifts at Subway and did nothing. Then suddenly I was like, “I’m going to put clothes away,” and I did! Then I said, “Maybe I can wash a few dishes,” and I did that too!! Then I showered, and I also washed my face!! Sometimes you just need rest. Sometimes, just like the frog, you don’t realize you are burnt out till it’s too late. It’s never too late to be kind to yourself though.
I also know that being kind to yourself is a lot easier said than done. So how do we start? Firstly, you have to allow yourself to do nothing guilt-free. It’s called rest, and it’s actually kind of fun if you can not feel guilty about it. Secondly, give yourself grace. Your problems aren’t going anywhere; they will wait for you. I promise. Lastly, try to forgive yourself for whatever you feel guilty for.
I’m so tired of feeling this way, but I can’t shake the guilt. I feel like if I could, I’d be doing so much better. Not to mention work has been a non-stop marathon the past 2 days, but no matter how much I get done, there is still more to do. And then I come home, and there is even more to do. There’s nowhere safe with no expectations. I have to make that space for myself, and I can’t do it.
I don’t know how to make a space with no expectations yet. I wish I did. What I do know is that I can’t keep pretending I don’t feel the heat. Maybe I don’t know how to jump out right now, but I’m not a frog, and life is not a pot of boiling water, so I have time. Time to keep trying, keep talking to my therapist, and keep trying to give myself grace.
Because that’s the only way out of the metaphorical boiling pot, and as long as I’m trying, there is hope. As long as you are still here, still showing up, and still doing the best with what you’ve got and what you know- there’s hope. Hope is what reminds us that there’s more to life than where we are right now.
Thanks again to all my readers. I really appreciate you, and I hope this post was able to encourage you even a little bit. I wish I had answers and an easy 3-step plan to get rid of burnout, but I don’t. All I can offer is hope, and I hope that is enough. Please leave a comment and let me know what you thought of this post. I would love to hear from you. Until next time, hang in there.
Sincerely,
LIBD
#MusicMonday (Cry by Jason Walker)
I’m not an easy person to offend. I’ve been offended probably 3 times in my life, but I only remember what was said this one time. I’ve talked about this before, but someone said something along the lines of, “… and if the answer is no, are you just going to start crying like you always do?” In their defense, I was crying a lot at that point in life. I was on an antidepressant that didn’t work, I had gained an obscene amount of weight, and I wasn’t in therapy. And I was too timid to say it then, so I’m going to say it now: “How dare you shame me like that”!
The main reason I was offended was because I genuinely thought they were right. Because let’s face it, no one is ever offended by something unless there’s an ounce of truth to what is being said. If someone came up to me and said my jewelry was ugly, I might be mad or defensive, but I wouldn’t be offended.
It wasn’t until I read The Boy, the Mole, the Fox, and the Horse that I realized that what they said was unfair. In the book it says, “tears fall for a reason, and they are your strength not weakness” and these thoughts all jumbled together brought us here to this song. So, with that being said, let’s get this rolling! Quick side note I did condense the lyrics a bit because the word cry repeats a lot, so if you want word for word lyrics this isn’t it.
Oh no, where did all the years go? Was it really worth all of this?
A heartache that was handed to me, holdin' on just don't make sense
This is usually the train of thought that leads to a good cry session. Not always, but like, I’m 30. I thought I’d be more… just more, by now. And life keeps on throwing me hurdles. Any time I think I’ve gotten past the worst, I never let myself relax because I know just around the corner is another trainwreck waiting for me.
But the hardest part of letting go
is trying to find a way to let you know
So we'll just cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over, can't it just be over?
And we'll just , cry until it's all gone
Been holdin' on for too long, time for us to move on
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why
So let's just cry
Sometimes I just feel sad for no reason. I just want to cry, but I don’t because I have no reason to. I’ve learned however, that we don’t always need a reason to cry. I can just put on a sad song and be sad. And if I cry, then I’ll cry. Because tears fall for a reason. And they are our strength not weakness.
Well, I've been thinkin' 'bout my life and how much time I've wasted
And I'm ready to put it all behind me, let it all be yesterday
But the hardest part of letting go is tryna find a way to let you know
As I said in the beginning, part of the reason I was so mad about what they said was that they weren’t wrong. I wasted so many years of my life feeling sorry for myself. When I say the psych ward is the best thing that ever happened to me, I’m not kidding. It sucked while it was happening, but it was worth it 100 times over. I regret nothing.
So let's just cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over, can't it just be over?
And we'll just cry until it's all gone
Been holdin' on for too long, time for us to move on
Sometimes I have panic attacks that I refer to as meltdowns, and they happen like a volcano. I get anxious, but I calm myself down, and it’s fine for weeks or even months, until it’s not. People think I’m crazy because after a meltdown I’m great!! Everything that I had been shoving down or putting aside is out of myself and into the world (sorry world), and I feel great! Well, except for the chest pain that I have for the next 3 days from hyperventilating.
One time, it was really hot, so that added another level to my meltdown that took me a while to fully recover from, but it feels so much better when all the icky and uncomfortable feelings are outside of you and not inside of you anymore. It’s a real bummer feeling anxious all the time. Thankfully, I haven’t had a meltdown in a while since I started my anxiety medication.
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why
So let's just cry, cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over, can't it just be over?
That’s another thought I have a lot. When life feels so overwhelming I wanna cry until it’s over, but when will it be over? I’m an ugly crier, and it gives me a headache, so depending on the time frame I may not want to cry till it’s over. But what else can you do?
And we'll just cry until it's all gone
Been holdin' on for too long, time for us to move on
Have you been holding on for too long? It feels right in the moment to hold on and keep it together. Maybe whatever it was doesn’t seem cryworthy so you just don’t. I’ve learned something about feelings though. You can’t wait them out. You can’t wait for them to go away. You have to work through the feeling, confront it, and deal with it. That’s the only way to make it go away.
Sure, you can bury the feeling or brush it aside, but that’s a short-term, temporary fix. Not a long-term solution. Whatever we are feeling deserves to be felt. Just like tears fall for a reason, feelings exist for a reason. They may not make sense, and they may not be fun, but they’re there for a reason, so feel it, work through it, and cry through it if that’s what it takes.
I'm tired of trying to find a reason why [x3]
So let's just cry
Thanks for hanging out with me today. I know this post wandered into the deep end—and maybe turned into “crying: the musical” along the way—but hey, sometimes that’s just where life ends up. If you need a good cry, find a sad song or a tear-jerker video and let it all out. This is a no-judgement zone. Honestly, I may be doing the same lol.
Sincerely,
LIBD