Cats…. Even though they eat the same food, live in the same house, living each day the same, they don’t feel depressed or bored. To them, time is only the current moment. ‘Because I’m 20’ ‘Since I’m 30’ ‘Because soon I’ll be 40’… The only species that confines itself to partitions of time like that is humans. Only humans attack age as a weakness and spend money on it, and it causes them to spend emotions…. 30 years, 40 years, for cats it’s the same thing every day.
Because this is My First Life
This show was super funny. It’s called Because this is my First Life. I can really relate to this though, and when I heard this quote, that was the moment this series was born. I don’t know if I’m the only one who struggles with this or if everyone does, but we don’t talk about it because we can’t do anything about it. It’s a fear that is totally paralyzing sometimes. I wrote about this before, but I feel like no matter what I do, I’m still not…. Succeeding, I guess, but there are many more quotes from the show that we need to discuss too.
The world is not going to get better. That also means my life is not going to get better. I should be living to avoid the worst thing that could happen tomorrow.
I didn’t just love how much I could relate to these characters but also that these were the type of people I would be jealous of. I would see them on social media and wish I had my life together like they did. Yet there they were. One of them is living their dream with the disappointment that it isn’t what she thought it would be like. He had his fancy job and apartment but wasn’t really living. It was crazy to me that someone could have a life like that but feel the same things I was feeling. This brings me to another quote.
It looks like everyone is trying really hard, but no one knows whether they’re getting closer to achieving what they want.
They were indeed trying hard, but that just made it worse because she worked so hard, but it wasn’t what she was expecting. Even though it was her dream, she still wasn’t really happy. I feel that…
I think I’ve already become a failure in this life, but I’ll try my best.
I think that’s the key. Not the being a failure part, but the trying our best part. I think we need to get rid of our expectations of happiness or “success.” That’s what got in the way of their own happiness. They put such high expectations into their ideal lives, and when they finally achieved them, they didn’t feel the excitement and joy they thought they would. I don’t know about you, but I know I’m guilty of thinking I can achieve happiness. We can achieve our goals, but happiness doesn’t need to be achieved. It can happen at any time. The problem is I miss it because I am so focused on what I need to do to be happy that I fail to notice the happiness around me in my current life.
It’s important to take care of your star pocket… Sometimes there are moments that sparkle. Whenever that happens, don’t let it get away. Save them in your star pocket. That way, when things get tough or when you get tired, you can take out a star and find the power to get through it.
What’s in your star pocket? In mine is me and my friend watching parks and rec clips or kpop videos and talking and laughing until my face hurts. Or when I fell off of Sunny and lay in the dirt wondering if that was what it felt like to truly live. Feeding the Giraffes at the zoo. I forget about all these things because I’m so focused on what I think I need to do to feel happy.
It’s not what I imagined my life would be at 30, but for a 30th year I’ve never lived before, it’s not that bad.
Honestly, they’re right. We don’t have an instruction manual or guide about how to do life. Considering I’ve never been 27 before, I think I’m doing okay. It’s not what I thought it’d be, but I don’t know what it should be like either. It’s never happened before. So, let’s try not to be too hard on ourselves. Let’s avoid getting so caught up in this idea of success that we forget what’s happening around us. Let’s learn from our pets and focus on making the most of the current moment. As I said before, those characters were the kind of people I would be jealous of, but they were just as much of a hot mess as me and you. A hot mess with a lovely apartment and a cute cat maybe, but still. I love my basement and have a cute dog, so we are even. I’ll see y’all on Monday!
Sincerely,
LIBD
