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#MusicMonday (Ready Now by Woojin)

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Welcome to part 1 or 2 of my series. Does the intro count as part 1? Or is this part 1? Please let me know in the comments. This translation is from klyricsforyou.com. Their translation was the most readable. Because of how the Korean language works, I tend to pick the most readable translation. Often, translations that are too literal don’t always make sense. Thankfully, I found a good translation and didn’t have to do it myself. Let’s get started!

Now stop
Even when I yell out that it hurts
You smile and scar me again

Life is hard. I say it all the time, but it’s true. It’s been hard the past year. I cried, I got angry, I ignored it… Yet here I am writing this series. Another year of my life was wasted, and it’s all my fault. Yay.

The image of an ordinary person without a mask
That normal face scares me even more

Recently I’ve felt like I don’t know who I am. I’ve tried so hard to be…… however I should be, but I don’t even remember how. I try to be funny. Making people laugh makes me feel good for a few minutes. I try to talk to people, but I talk about myself, and I never know if I’m doing okay or if I should just shut up. I hate it.

(oh eh oh eh oh)
Every day, I’m struggling
To not lose to these dark emotions

It’s so hard. I just want to be happy and cheerful again, and I never thought I would say those words, but it’s true. I want to look forward to life again. I want to make my life something I can be proud of. I want to be the real me again, but I’m not quite sure who that is anymore.

(oh eh oh eh oh)
As I believe that this moment will surely pass
(Let it go)

It happened once, so I know it will happen again. I want to find the real me again. She was super awesome, and I miss her a lot. I hope she comes back soon.

This anxious night endlessly calls out to me
There’s a faint light inside that darkness

I can see the potential of everything life offers, but I feel like it’s just out of reach. Just do it, just live. Such simple words… so why is it so difficult?

[Pre-Chorus] This pain seems like it’ll last forever
I’m in my own hands, it’s the end

I got my meds adjusted, and I am feeling better. I know it takes time, but I don’t have time. I’ve wasted so much already. How long will I let life pass me by without doing anything about it? Doing nothing is so much easier though, and I just can’t seem to find enough energy to try.

[Chorus] Let’s clash against this together
I’m ready now (Hey Hey)
I’m ready now, It’s the end

One good thing is I’ve graduated from not caring at all to caring a little. I want to do better and feel like I can do better. I’m ready to be happy again and start chasing after my dreams again. I’m ready to be better, but I’m still waiting for it to happen.

[Chorus cont.] Put a brilliant end to the painful times
Cuz I’m ready, It’s the end
oh oh oh oh oh It’s the end

Like in my music Monday for Someday by Rob Thomas, I need to forget the past. Depression is a horrible disease that can ruin your entire life, but I’m starting to feel better, so I need to put my best foot forward.

I’m throwing a spark, not knowing it’ll grow bigger, yeah
The reasonless and cruel joke creates ashes in me
I find courage to say, please stop but
The quiet echo keeps repeating back to me

I feel like I’m back to the beginning. I have to learn to be happy all over again, but maybe I do. Perhaps I just need to remember how.

Hardships endlessly continue
And tomorrow keeps coming
[Pre-Chorus & Chorus]

Every day I struggle to do things just feels like another nail in the coffin. How am I supposed to follow my dreams if I can’t even bring myself to shower and brush my teeth? I understand how a person can be so horrible at doing life. Yet, here I am, amazing myself a little more every day in the worst possible way. The days just keep coming and going, and every day is another day I wasted.

Honestly, I’m still nervous and afraid
Afraid that I won’t be able to endure
Because it’s a difficult path
But still, I’m taking one more step

Honestly, I’m terrified. What if I’m never happy again? What if I never get back to normal? What if I just suck forever and die alone at the end of a long, meaningless life? I’m trying, and I know I’m getting better, but I’m tired. I don’t want to keep getting better; I want to BE better. I want to be the fun, confident Erin. Who didn’t care if she wasted 10 years of her life because, as Oneus says in their song Incomplete, “It’s okay if I’m starting a little later than everyone else”. Like Keonhee says in their song Life is Beautiful, “A little slower’s not gonna hurt your vibe”. Fun, confident Erin believed those things and lived by them. I want to believe again.

I’m putting an end to this pain
I’m starting again, yeah
From the beginning, just like new
So you and I can smile

What if I just chose to believe those things again? It’s almost midnight, but what if when I woke up tomorrow, I just believed again that it was okay if I started a little late? What if I started first thing tomorrow when I woke up? Not beating myself up for everything I don’t do. Appreciating the happy moments as they happen. What if I stopped trying so hard to be better and decided to just be?

Now I’m going forward
I’m ready now (Hey Hey)
I’m ready now, Let’s begin
Preparing for a new beginning
For that bright sun of tomorrow
Cuz I’m ready, Let’s begin

I’m not excited about life, but I’m excited for tomorrow. I’m going to stop trying so hard to be “normal” or “happy” and just live because, like Oneus says, “Life is Beautiful.” And Oneus would never lie to us, so it must be true. That’s my story, and I’m sticking with it.

I’m putting an end to this pain
So you and I can smile
Let’s begin

Tomorrow I’m not going to expect anything of myself. If I don’t brush my teeth, who cares?! It won’t be the first time; it won’t be the last time. If I do absolutely nothing… Fine, then! Just another day in paradise. And if I find something to smile about, I’ll smile, and if tomorrow sucks, I’ll be bummed and try again the next day. I can’t let myself continue to live every day feeling defeated by life before the day even begins. So, I’m not going to focus on being better. I’m going to focus on enjoying life. I think I lived my best life when I stopped caring so much about living my best life.
Thanks for reading, and I’ll see y’all in part 3!

Sincerely,
LIBD

#MusicMonday (Lucky Charms by Anson Seabra)

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Hey everyone. It’s been a while, but I’m sad again, so here I am. I love Anson Seabra’s music, and I’ve wanted to do a #MusicMonday for one of his songs for quite a while now. It’s been a rough few days though, and I think I finally found the one I want to write about. I’m not going to bore you with my problems just yet, so let’s dive right in.

Same ceiling, different day
I'm awake so stay on my phone for 14 hours again
Same lucky charms in the same bowl
Look for rainbows but all the colors just go grey in the end

I don’t know what’s wrong lately. Maybe I’m overreacting. Perhaps I’m just more insecure than I care to admit. Every day seems like the same struggles that get harder and harder to ignore. I used to not care, so why do I suddenly care so much? Why does life hurt so bad right now?

Wish I could say, wish I could say
That this won't last forever
But every day, but every day
It never seems to get better

I keep waiting for it to get better, but every day it doesn’t, just makes me feel that much worse. I just want to cry. When will it get better?

I hate myself but I don't want to
I'd ask for help but I'm too strong to

I am supposed to know how to deal with life. I’m supposed to have all the answers to share with you guys. I’m supposed to prove that things get better, but why does it feel so horrible again? I don’t want to feel like this. I hate myself, but I don’t want to. I just do, and I wish I knew how to stop.

I got some feelings I've been fighting
Always hiding the truth
I hate myself but I don't want to

I don’t know who to talk to. Who can help me? I have so many people I can talk to, but why do I feel so alone? I’m worried my friend hates me, and I can’t ask her because she’s too nice to admit it. I don’t want her to only talk to me out of pity. It’s so exhausting trying to decide if someone hates me or if they really are just that busy. They seem to have time for everyone else, so why doesn’t she have time for me? I wish she would just tell me she hates me. It wouldn’t hurt so much if she hated me.

Friends say that I'm dramatic, that I'm acting
Yeah, I'm just looking for attention again
I never thought that this would happen
Kinda sad when, when all you got is just a voice in your head

I hate that voice in my head. It’s so mean. Like Tomoons on Twitter right now, complaining about the tour, it just won’t shut up, and just like Tomoons on Twitter, I really wish it would shut up. Maybe I am over-dramatic. I can’t just go around asking my friends if they hate me. None of them would ever admit it to my face.

Wish I could say, wish I could say
That this won't last forever
But every day, but every day
It never seems to get better

Nothing’s going right. I’ve got more important things to worry about. There’s a Oneus concert coming up, and I always thought I would go with my best friend, but I don’t even know if she ever really thought of me as a friend or if she was just being nice, hoping that eventually I would go away. I have other friends though, so why do I care so much?

I hate myself but I don't want to
I'd ask for help but I'm too strong to
I got some feelings I've been fighting
Always hiding the truth

Why is it that no one ever seems to care about me as much as I care about them? What’s wrong with me? Am I a bad person? Is it because I’m too much? Did I do something wrong? I’ve tried so hard to be a better friend, and I know I have 2 friends who care about me. Is it because I’m too ungrateful? Am I too annoying? I always tell my friends that if they just tell me to shut up, I will………………… Why won’t she just tell me if she hates me?

I hate myself but I don't want to
I hate myself but I don't want to
I don't wanna live my life like this
Going through the motion

Every day I try so hard not to care. I hate that I don’t have faith in my friends. I hate that I’m so insecure. I hate how I always act like nothing bothers me and then cry over stupid things like this. I don’t want to hate myself, but sometimes it’s just so hard not to. I’m not motivated and don’t take good care of myself. It’s not hard to believe that she might be my friend out of pity, but I wish people would just tell me straight. I’ll be hurt a bit at first, but I know it won’t hurt as bad or as long as this.

I don't wanna live my life like this
Always feeling broken

I hate it. It sucks feeling like this. Being paranoid and never knowing for sure whether people really care or not. I have 2 amazing friends, though, but I thought I had 3, and that’s what bothers me. I hate feeling so broken like I’m always falling apart and piecing myself back together. Why am I like this?

I hate myself but I don't want to
I'd ask for help but I'm too strong to
I got some feelings I've been fighting
Always hiding the truth

I just wish I had a magic wand I could wave to make everyone speak the truth. How pathetic am I? It’s no wonder she doesn’t like hanging out with me. Her other friends are probably more fun and reasonable. Her other friends probably aren’t as annoying. I always say, “A lot of people say a lot of things. It doesn’t necessarily mean anything.” I hate that I feel like I can’t trust anyone. I hate that I hate, but I don’t know how to stop. I can’t trust anyone, no matter how badly I want to. I hate myself, I hate my life, and I don’t know how to stop hating.

I hate myself but I don't want to [x4}

Thanks for reading. I don’t know. I kind of hope no one reads it. I was so excited about the concert, but the 1 person I was most looking forward to going with wasn’t going. I’m sure she doesn’t actually hate me. She told me the other day we would hang out soon because she misses me. But like I said, she’s just really nice like that. She always has a legit excuse, but for some reason, I don’t believe anymore that she doesn’t hate me. Don’t be mad at her. She’s a really fantastic person, and I hope the people she spends time with understand how lucky they are to have someone like her in their lives. Which is the exact same reason I’m concerned she’s only being nice to me because she’s just that good of a person. I keep telling myself to just leave her alone and not bother her, but I still try to talk to her for some reason. Anyway, it’s late. Life is always worse at night, so I’ll go sleep. Goodnight, guys.

Sincerely,
LIBD

#MusicMonday (Incomplete by Oneus)

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Hey guys!!!! Welcome to this #MusicMonday! I wrote this 2 weeks ago to go with my Living as Me series, but I already promised everyone their other song Now, so I’ve been saving this one for today. I love this song so much. Funny story: I listened to this song once when the album first came out and ignored it. I didn’t look up the lyrics, so I just heard the phrase, “my life is incomplete,” and assumed it was one of those cheesy breakup songs where someone dumps you, and your life is now incomplete. Those songs make me mad because you can live your life just fine being single. Yeah, I know. Anyway, everyone kept saying how much they loved this song and the lyrics, and finally, I was like, “Alright, let’s see what all the fuss is about.” Now it’s my favorite song from this album and probably of all time. Never judge a kpop song by its English lyrics.

I just look ahead and try to run
Stop doing meaningless things

I need to focus on what’s ahead and what I can do today to make tomorrow better. From here on out, it’s all about living the best life possible. I will learn how to appreciate my life, however simple and uneventful it may be. I’ve never liked being busy. I don’t know why I spent so long trying to make my life meaningful by other people’s standards. It’s my life and my journey, and my responsibility.

I don’t know if I’m halfway yet
But I’ll prove it, my life
I can’t even measure the time that’s passed

I like to think I’m halfway to my life being complete, but who knows? Not me, lol. I’m going to make my life something I can be proud of. I know I still have a long way to go, but I will make sure to do what I want from now on. It doesn’t matter what’s happened in the past. All that matters is now I have a happier future to look forward to. I need to prove that I can make my own choices for my own life. I can’t waste any more time.

“You can’t stop’
“You must not fall behind others”
“You always have to overcome”
Stop saying the stereotypical words
I wanna go my own way

Sometimes it’s okay to stop and take a break. Sometimes it’s okay to fall behind. I don’t know if you are familiar with a horse named Secretariat. Still, he is one of my two favorite racehorses. The other one (Ruffian) never knew what second place was. I don’t think she even knew it was a thing. She was famous for leading races from start to finish. Secretariat was different. He often liked to hang back, wait for the perfect moment to charge ahead and leave all the other horses behind in the dust to take the victory for himself. I admire Ruffian for her effortless-looking wins, but I admire Secretariat even more for his perseverance. He didn’t care if he wasn’t first the entire time. He knew he was gonna win in the end. Everybody is different. Some people might seem to have everything figured out by the time they turn 20. Others, like myself, may still be trying to figure it out when they are 26. It doesn’t mean either of us is a failure; we can’t all be Ruffians. Some of us are more like Secretariat. It’s not over till it’s over, so we shouldn’t give up just because we aren’t in the lead.

An endless running start
Now I’m standing at the starting line
I don’t care if I’m starting a little later than the others

It doesn’t matter if I start a little later than everyone else. We all just want to be happy and proud of who we are and what we do. I’m only 26. It’s not like my life is almost over, so I shouldn’t act like it is. Now that I’ve learned to live as myself, I look forward to seeing where that life takes me.

My life is incomplete, imperfect emotion
I'm twisted like a cretan maze
Destined to be completed somehow

I love this saying, “I’m twisted like a Cretan maze.” I looked it up, and a Cretan maze is an ancient maze design from Crete. It’s usually square or circular and very elaborate. Still, unlike most mazes you would think of, there is only 1 path, and it leads all the way to the center. It takes forever because the path is so long, but inevitably you will reach the end. I love it because it sounds a lot like life! It can be intimidating and scary sometimes, and you might think every now in then that the maze will go on forever, but eventually, you will make it to where you are going. I’m not lost because there is only one way forward; if I just keep going, I will make it to the end.

It’s okay if it’s not perfect
My life is incomplete yeah
It’s okay if it's not perfect
I, I, I Fly, fly away
I, I, I Fly, fly away
My life is incomplete yeah
It’s okay even if it's not perfect

I can’t get so focused on the destination that I forget to enjoy the journey, though. I used to think that once I got my license, a car, my own house, and a boyfriend/husband, THEN I would be happy, but I can be happy right now. My life is incomplete, but that doesn’t mean it’s any less valuable. Like Oneus says, It’s okay even if it’s not perfect. I can still enjoy it and be happy even if I don’t have it all together yet.

I'm a being legend, level up, do better (better)
There’s no giving up, drop the anchor here
I don’t need navigation
I ran like crazy with you to catch my dream

Navigation is useless because this path is my own. No one can tell me where to go because everyone’s life is different, so there are no maps. We are all just figuring it out as we go along. Again, some people are WAY better at it than others, but it’s not a competition because we are not competing for the same thing. We all have goals and dreams; if we want something, we need to go get it.

Don’t stop running even if you fall
Keep climbing
You have to overcome the weight of the crown

Can’t you just buy a lighter crown??? I’m kidding; I’m sorry. What is the old saying? “Heavy is the head that wears the crown” or something like that? If you want to be the King, you better start with neck exercises? In all seriousness, though, this is also important. I’m full of confidence and determination now, but I’m sure I’ll still have my days when I’m tired and don’t feel like running, but even if I need a tiny break, I mustn’t give up. Because I will too, that’s totally a me thing to do. I just have to remember to keep moving forward, and as long as I do that then, one day, my life will be complete

Sweep it away if you get hurt
endure it, and repeat however many times
Looking at it
With one step we can run
and I can fly again

I’m sure there will still be obstacles; there always are. It’s so annoying. Why can’t it just be easy?? No matter how many times I stumble and fall, I’ll just keep going, just like I always have.

[Insert Pre-chorus and Chorus]
I just look ahead and try to run
Stop doing meaningless things, yeah
One step, two steps, keep going and don’t stop
I’ll get there in the end, yeah

I remember this super old kids’ movie I watched every Christmas when I was young, and there’s this one scene where they are teaching….. I don’t know if it was an abominable snowman or something……. but they sing this song that goes, “put one foot in front of the other, and soon you’ll be walking out the door.” I just gotta take it one step at a time, one day at a time. I did one of those Cretan mazes the other day when I was reading about them, and I swear it wasn’t even a big maze, but since it was all one path, it took forever to get to the center!!!!!! Don’t be in a hurry, though. Remember you don’t have to wait till you get there to be happy. It’s a long road. We might as well do some sightseeing along the way to make it worthwhile.

Even if I can’t see the end
Just brush it off and get back up

Ah yes, that famous saying from Meet the Robinson’s “keep moving forward.” Life is tough, but so are we. My life is worth fighting for, and so is yours. I have 2 main things to knock off of my to-do list. I had a panic attack about it yesterday. I’m a grown adult who cried for like 20 whole minutes about making phone calls and going to the dentist. I was so ashamed. Thankfully my mom said she would help me. I can’t see the end, but I’m not going to worry about that right now. I’m going to enjoy my weekend off and look forward to hopefully buying a new phone tomorrow. I’m really gonna miss playing the “why isn’t my phone working today” game. Edit note: My weekend off was terrific, and I love my new phone. It’s not the newest one because I would never pay that much for a phone. It’s the 11, and it’s a bit bigger, but my tiny hands are slowly getting used to it. It works, and I don’t have to charge it every 5 minutes, so I am very happy.

I’ve been running breathlessly
I overcame failure like this and succeeded again
I just have to go my own way and enjoy it
I’m twisted like a Cretan maze

Honestly, it’s stressful making appts with new doctors, finding a new dentist, and my dog’s latest vet bill for her yearly checkup…… It’s a lot. Then, after all, this is done, I can move on to finding a new neuromuscular doctor and getting my license. I feel like it will never end, but I know if I keep working hard, I will eventually reach the center of the maze. I love Cretan mazes because there’s only 1 way, and it’s the right way, so you never have to worry about going the wrong way. However, they are such a hassle because the square doesn’t look big, but it takes forever because you have to go everywhere else before you can get to the end. It doesn’t look like it should be that long, but it is. That’s how my life feels sometimes.

It’s okay if it’s not perfect
My life is incomplete yeah
It’s okay if it's not perfect
I, I, I Fly, fly away
I, I, I Fly, fly away

My life is incomplete, but that’s okay. I’m not in a hurry and have plenty of time. My life is incomplete, but that’s okay. I’m not in a hurry and have plenty of time. I also plan to focus more on the journey than the destination. Like today I enjoyed the beautiful weather. I found out my earth and moon fan meeting merch should be shipped this week. Editing Note: I got it. It was AWESOME! The pictures were adorable, and the keychain was so pretty. It will be a nice reward for the essential but terrifying phone calls I need to make to schedule the appointments, even though I don’t like going to the doctor. That’s not till Monday or Tuesday, so I’m going to enjoy the weekend. I’ll watch a k-drama, play some Pokémon Go, and appreciate the little things every day instead of worrying about what’s next. I’ll deal with tomorrow when it gets here.

My life is incomplete yeah
It’s okay even if it's not perfect

It’s okay if my life isn’t perfect. I’ll get there when I get there, and until then, I’ll enjoy my life exactly how it is right now. My dog, my friends, Kpop, riding horses, and of course, my sacred me-time. This song made me realize that not having my life together isn’t bad. It may be incomplete, but that doesn’t mean anything is wrong with it. Isn’t life’s purpose? To keep striving to do better and grow more? If our lives were complete, there would be no point to them. Also, who knows how long that will take? That’s why I’m glad I’ve learned to be happy with the person I am right now. It’s okay, even if it’s not perfect.

Sincerely,
LIBD

#MusicMonday (Thanxx by Ateez)

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Welcome to part 1 of the Living as Me series (I’m not counting the intro as part of the series even though it is I guess. I don’t know, just go with it). Happy #MusicMonday! Also, shout out to Ateez on their latest comeback. It’s a great song! I haven’t listened to the rest of the album, but my Atiny friends have assured me it’s just as good, and by the time you read this, I’m sure they will have made sure I’ve listened to the rest of it. Also, for non-K-pop readers, all K-pop group fans have a name, and Ateez fans are called Atiny. Oneus fans are Tomoons, Snuper fans are Swing, JBJ95 fans are Jjakkung, The Rose fans are Black Roses, WEi fans are RUi, and Blackpink fans…………………………… Are you bored to tears yet?

Most of my non-K-pop readers have probably stopped reading. Sighs loudly Oh well. I would like to go on record that I could continue for at least two more lines with K-pop groups and their fan names (Astro fans are Aroha). However, to respect that not all of my readers are K-pop fans (E’last fans are Elrings), I will stop and continue with my blog. This week’s song is Thanxx by Ateez, and the lyrics are from colorcodedlyrics.com (Blackpink fans are Blinks). I really like this song because I feel like I have lived through the entirety of the lyrics. So, without further ado…. (UNB fans were UNME (It was adorable; I miss them)). Let’s go!!!!

“You’re gonna regret it”
“You’ll understand when you are older”
Same words every time
I’m sick and tired of it
I’m sick and tired of it
(Nobody knows)

Honestly, now that I’m 26, people say this to me much less, but I think the only reason is that now that I am older, I do know. That being said, I was so sick of hearing it when I was younger!! Were they right? Yes. Did I care? No. Do I care now? Still no (Tomorrow x Together (TXT) fans are MOA(Moments of Awareness (Don’t ask me why. I didn’t come up with it))). We won’t know until we are older, so unless we are in physical danger, just let us figure it out for ourselves. You can give all the advice in the world, but it’s up to us to choose what we do with that advice and telling me the same thing over and over just makes me not want to listen to you. Also…. Dreamcatcher fans are InSomnia (that one I had to look up because I don’t really follow girl groups, but I LOVE it)

“What do you wanna do”
“What do you wanna be when you grow up”
I don’t know, it’s my first time
I think I’ll know once I get to live a little more

People still ask me this, and I’ve been giving the same answer for the past 10 years. I. DON’T. KNOW! I’ve never been 26 before! I’d never even been an adult until I was one (SF9 fans are Fantasy). I’m just trying to survive the week! You can keep asking me but being annoying isn’t make me come up with an answer any faster! I also would love to know what I want to do with my life (BTS fans are Army), but I don’t know. I really don’t. Actually, I do know. I want to blog and work with animals, and would you look at that……. I’m already doing it!!! Oh, you don’t like that answer…. too bad!

Do this, do that, I don't care
If I keep ignoring you, I’ll have more fun, pop pop pop
Pops like bubble gum, pum pum pum
Ah yeah, like birds of a feather, they gather
Their lips won’t rest, just clap your hands

Literally, talk to me about ANYTHING else besides my future. I’ve already answered you, you just don’t like the answer, and the more people bug me, the less inclined I am to give an answer. Everybody is so curious to hear about my life, and I’m really not that interesting!!! (Target fans are Wonnie). Seriously, it’s exhausting!! At this point, every day that the world doesn’t end is a success for me. Also, my life is none of their business. If they want to know more about me, they can read my blog, and they don’t. I know they don’t because if they did, they wouldn’t have to ask me the same questions every time they see me. They would have already gotten the answers from my latest post (Exo fans are Exo-L (I still don’t know what the L stands for)). This is because I’m not successful like my brother. The restaurant where my brother works is reopening one of its locations where he will be the new kitchen manager. They posted about the reopening on Facebook. My dad shared it and talked about how great my brother is (To be fair, he did get promoted…. Again. He should be proud) and how proud my dad is of him. I’m just reading it like, “Wow.” Maybe once I do something Facebook-worthy, they will leave me alone. They never ask my brother what he will do with his life. (Monsta X fans are Monbebe) They never bother him about getting his life together because it’s already together! I’m not mad at my brother. Me, him, and my sister-in-law have a group chat called the Pokémon Go Squad. It’s a lot of fun, so I’m not mad at my brother…. I’m angry at everyone else.

[Pre-chorus 1]
“Lift the blue flag, lift the white flag”
“Why aren’t you listening?”
“When I was young…” “Kids these days…”
Oops. Just mind your own business please

Do they want to live my life for me? Because if they think they can do a better job, then by all means, go for it! They probably could though. They don’t have anxiety, depression, muscular dystrophy, and no social life (Enhypen fans are Engene). What do they want me to say?? “I’m sorry I suck at life. My bad.” Or “I’m sorry I’m a failure. I will definitely try to remedy that for you.” Or “I’m so sorry my life isn’t good enough for you because obviously, every morning when I wake up, my first thought is what would you do!!!!!!!!”. It’s not like it’s MY life or anything (Vixx fans are Starlight). Seriously just go away! If you are going to talk to me about life, just don’t bother talking to me. “Why aren’t I listening” because nothing you are saying is helping!! “Kids these days…” What?! Kids these days, what!?!?!? If you’ve got a problem with me, I can guarantee that I won’t like you as much as you don’t like me. Also……. N.Flying fans are called N.Fia (It combines N.Flying with the word Utopia kind of like how Atiny is a combination of Ateez and the word Destiny (I had to look that one up to, and I’m ashamed because I actually really like N.Flying))

[Pre-chorus 2]
“Everything I say is right”
“I know because I've done it”
Yes Sir, Yes Sir, Yes Sir
Gracias

Yes, yes, I know…. You walked to school uphill both ways in the snow. You didn’t have a tv or a phone…… Well, I had a school bus, tv, and a phone, and if times have changed that much, you can’t honestly expect what worked for you to work for me. (NCT fans are NCTzens (if you say it fast, it sounds like N citizens)) Thank you for your input she says sarcastically. I will get right on that (not really). I will cherish your advice (that you’ve given me 10 times now) just as much as my mom’s cat Ember would…… so basically not at all (Kard fans are Hidden Kard).

[Chorus 1]
Your worries? no thanks I’m ok
I’m just doing me
Don’t say it's all for my own sake
Leave me alone, I’m in my own rhythm

Please!! Don’t worry about my life; I’m handling it. It’s my life, not yours, so I’ll live it my way. I’m sorry if my way isn’t good enough for you, but my mission in life is not to make you proud (I’ve already accepted that that will never happen). I’m good. Just…. Keep walking. Preferably in a direction away from me. (Mamamoo fans are called MooMoo’s. (I guess moomoo means radish in Korean. (Their light stick (all groups have one of those too) is in the shape of a radish. (However, I’m curious if the light stick came first or the fandom name)))).

[Chorus 2]
Dancing, dancing, dancing
Move, move, move
Dancing, dancing, dancing (Let’s go let’s go)
I’ll do it my way because I own it

I’m not dying, and the world is not ending, so what’s wrong with how I spend my time? I have a job, and I’m not in jail. I think that is a good start (Seventeen fans are called Carat’s (you know, like diamonds)). My psychiatrist told me I didn’t have to figure everything out right away, so why is everyone trying to make me do just that?

Fix On
I’m firing, move out the way, I’m coming with a flash
One, two, there’s silence
Too much attention is poison so empty the glass, bless up
I’m at the top of the top, I make my catch 100 out of 100 times
Get ready and hold on, till until we're back-to-back

I’m sorry if my life isn’t good enough for others, but this song reminds me that I don’t even care. Too much interest is a poison, so if they could all just back off, that would be great. (Big Bang fans are VIP’s) It’s my life, and nobody else’s, so I shouldn’t care about their opinions anyway! In theory, this entire post is pointless. I shouldn’t even feel the need to write it!!!

[Pre-chorus 1 & 2]
[Chorus 1&2]
Don’t, don’t do it you're way
I know me, I know myself well
Whatever it is, I’ll do it my way
Let me do so, leave me alone

I do! I know myself better than any of them! (D-crunch fans are Diana’s) Maybe I’ve been struggling so much because I’ve been trying to follow everyone else’s plans and expectations. Perhaps I should try doing it my way for once. My way………… I like the sound of that. Maybe everyone else needs to please read the rest of the sentence in an angry voice since that is how I am typing it leave me the hell alone when it comes to the way I live my life!!!!

We are another type
We are another, baby
Each one of us has a different speed
We are all another, baby

I’m not my brother, I’m not my parents, and I’m not anyone else who is giving me advice. I’m me!! My life might not look like most peoples, but it doesn’t mean I’m failing. More importantly, I shouldn’t have to justify myself to anyone else! (Twice fans are Once (I had to look that up too (I know, right))) I don’t have to be like anyone else. I’m not dead, I’m not in jail, I don’t do drugs (hugs, not drugs), so I’m really not doing too bad. So, what if I don’t have my license yet? I’ll get there eventually. “When you ask?” “Whenever I feel like it, and now that you’ve asked, I really don’t feel like it.” I’ll get a boyfriend eventually and, by extension, get married. “When you ask,” Soon. I hope. At least the boyfriend part. At the moment, it seems incredibly unlikely since I don’t like meeting people. Still, I’m hoping one day he will just magically appear.” Wish me luck with that last one. I have two other single friends, so I don’t mind it as much anymore. I used to only have not single friends, and it was a nightmare. Also, Everglow fans are Forever. I had to look that one up, too though I can’t think of it anymore. Actually, aren’t Golden Child fans Golden Goldeness? They are. I think Imfact (I’m OBSESSED with their song nanana) fans might be Intuit. Let me check…. <5 minutes later> I was way off Imfact fans are IF (don’t ask me why I give up); however, there is a K-pop group called IN2IT and their fans are called IN2U which I think is absolutely adorable!!!!

They say "listen to us"
"can't you at least try"
yes sir, yes sir, yes sir
I'm okay, it's alright
Your worries? no thanks I’m ok
I am just who I am
Don’t say you’re doing this for me
Leave me alone, I’m in my own rhythm
[Insert Chorus 2]

Thanxx for the motivation speech, Ateez. Hahahaha, see what I did there? Are you laughing? No? Okay. Moving on…. Is there anyone actually still reading at this point?? And if you are still reading, I’m assuming you are either a K-pop fan, one of my friends, or one of my regular readers who was just really bored. And probably kind of hates me right now for all the K-pop references. Whoever you are, thank you for reading all the way to the end. This will not end up in my list of posts I’m most proud of. Still, I like the song, the message, and much like my life is right now, this blog is also mine, so I can do whatever I want, and y’all can ignore me, but you can’t stop me. Mwahahahahaha (That’s how I write evil laughter). This was terrible, possibly one of my worst, so gold stars for everyone who made it. Hopefully, the next one will be better. I just had way too much fun writing this to not post it. I’ll see you soon for part 2, so until next time……

Sincerely,
LIBD