I know what you’re thinking…. “Um, excuse you, this isn’t a Simple Plan song”. No, it’s not. Thank you for noticing. I was unable to write a Music Monday for a song called Best Day of My Life. I tried, and it wasn’t pretty so this is an official IOU for that 3rd song I owe you. You see my, life didn’t stay nice enough long enough for me to write it. So, you are getting this lovely song that I got to see mxmtoon perform when I saw AJR. This is a song I can vibe with right now. Sorry to disappoint you, I’d be more sorry if I had more readers but my 4 readers match the 4 visits to my Etsy shop and y’all know I love a matching set…… Buckle up, it’s a long one, and I promise it gets better as it goes on.
The trees look cold, all the leaves fell off
Maybe I should give them my sweater
The flowers say, "Hey, where is a sun today?"
As if I determin the weather
Life sucks right now. I’m falling apart. My one friend just got home from the beach and was tired, my other friend I’m not even asking to talk because she’s really excited about this job offer she got, and I don’t want to rain on her parade. And I have a lot of rain right now so it just seemed rude. My other friend is probably busy studying for a very important test and is responsible enough that she puts her phone on Do Not Disturb. My dog is asleep, so she’s no help. So I’m just here lonely and sad and depressed.
[Pre Chorus]
Yeah, the world's got its worries
Life's got us all in a hurry
Stuck on a loop overthinkin' all of our pain
So perhaps you can see why the other song was just not gonna happen. It’s okay I cried a bit in my car today. I have to work tomorrow and I’m not happy because I really hate having 2 jobs. It’s exhausting and some people like to tell me not to be exhausted because I don’t work as hard as them (don’t you just love people like that). Like If you broke your toe you can’t say it hurts because someone else out there has a broken leg and you have to earn the right to feel pain.
Damn, that was aggressive, but hey it’s a shit day and I’m gonna feel shitty about it. And there’s no one here to stop me. Like if you can work 58-hour weeks no problem, no shade my friend, just do me a favor and don’t walk around telling people who work 30-40 hour weeks that they can’t be tired. Maybe their bodies or their mental health don’t handle it as well as yours does. Let’s respect other people’s feelings instead of invalidating them.
[Chorus Part 1]
It's okay to frown, smile upside down
Feeling kinda blue like the sky right now
No way (no way), not gonna work it out
It's a feelin' that I'm havin', and I'll have it right now
I don’t want to work tomorrow because a.) it reminds me that I’m not living my best life, I have two jobs and the only reason I got to be relaxed and relieved even for a day is because I requested it off. b.) I was asked to stay late and I didn’t want to say no so I came up with an elaborate lie about a unit meeting at my other job but agreed to stay one hour late maximum. My poor dog spends so much time alone these days that I’m pretty sure she resents me for “abandoning her” because we finally have a day to spend together and she won’t even sit next to me. She’s just in her bed on the loveseat because she wouldn’t use it when I put it next to me.
You know you done screwed up when even your dog doesn’t like you. It’s not my fault though I don’t want to work two jobs (I’m pretty sure the stress alone is pretty unhealthy), but I don’t have a choice because I REFUSE to look for some rando on some app to be my roommate. I’m not moving out of a house with other people just to move somewhere else with other people. So my dog is just gonna have to hate me for a while and I’ll just accept that my life will suck indefinitely and I’ll just have to be constantly stressed and overwhelmed until I die. Yay me. No one is gonna read this. This is a total mess. Hey, just like my life! See, matching set!
[Chorus Part 2]
It comes and goes away
In time, my scars will fade
The look that's on my face
Is temporarily upside down
It's okay to frown
It won’t always be this way. I won’t always think my life is pointless and a waste of time. One day it will be almost good again and then I’ll write the one I was supposed to post today. One day I’ll look back at this post, laugh, and feel low-key embarrassed. But that day is not today. Today I’m going to frown.
Cruisin' on a cloud like an ocean wave
Don't feel bad 'bout the better
Fallin' to the ground like November rain
Sinkin' like a brick but I'm light as a feather
[Insert Pre-Chorus and Chorus]
Today, everything is horrible. My dad and his wife will come back from their trip though and I’ll forget what it’s like to be alone all over again and feel better. It’s all good.
Oh my, aren't we just fine?
Don't pay no mind
I'm just temporarily upside down
I like that line, “just temporarily upside down”. That’s a good way to think of it. Feeling like this doesn’t mean I’m back to square one, just temporarily upside down. I can be upset and angry right now if that’s how I’m feeling, it doesn’t have to mean anything.
Good morning
The weather forecast today is showing a slight chance of sunshine and sadness
It's another perfect day to not feel that perfect
I love this song because it sounds so upbeat and cheerful, but it’s really not. Maybe not feeling great doesn’t need to be so horrible. I can be bummed out and be just fine. Maybe sleep was what I needed, maybe it was the pep talk from my friend. She was kind enough to share my shop on her social media and you can too. Just throwing it out there. I think I’ll be alright. Maybe my Etsy shop is just temporarily upside down too. Another good example of how every metaphor has its limits.
It's okay to frown, smile upside down
Feeling kinda blue like the sky right now
I’m gonna frown I think. Just for right now. Until I feel like I don’t need to anymore. Everyone has bad days and that’s all this is. Just a few bad days, that hopefully are only temporary.
No way (no way), not gonna work it out
It's a feelin' that I'm havin', and I'll have it right now
I think sadness gets a bad rep. If you’ve seen inside out, you’ll know every emotion is important. When someone is happy you don’t tell them to tone it down, so why if someone is sad do we tell them to cheer up? Sure I may be a bit of a buzz kill right now, but you don’t have to hang out with me. When my friends are sad I’ll ask them if they want comfort or if they just want to feel sad.
No one feels sad for no reason, and if that’s how they feel then we need to respect it instead of trying to change it. There’s nothing wrong with offering comfort. The little pep talk my friend gave me really helped. I don’t feel better, but I also don’t feel as miserable as I did before. I’m just not ready to cheer up quite yet, and that’s okay, I can be sad for as long as I need to.
It comes and goes away
In time, my scars will fade
The look that's on my face
Is temporarily upside down
It's okay to frown
Let’s normalize the need to feel all feelings, not just the good ones. When someone asks me how I feel, I’ll say pretty good or fine no matter how I feel because if I say I’m sad then people ask what’s wrong and sometimes like today I feel like I don’t have enough of a reason to be sad. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from therapy it’s that you don’t need a reason to feel the way you feel, and you don’t have to explain yourself to anyone.
So let’s not be afraid to frown anymore okay. It doesn’t mean you’re going backward or that everything is awful. It just means that your smile is temporarily upside down, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that. If you feel sad this week I encourage you to be sad. If you feel happy this week then I encourage you to cherish every moment of it. If you don’t know how you feel, I encourage you not to think too hard about it. The other thing I’ve learned is that not every feeling has a name. Unless you count ‘uugggh geez loud exhale’ as a name, but really that’s just the best way I can describe it.
Jokes aside, thank you for reading!!! I hope it wasn’t too awful, or depressing, or whiny, if you thought it was then maybe go back and reread the part about respecting other people’s feelings. That’s right, I said what I said. I hope life is treating you well, and if it’s not just remember… It’s okay to frown. Please leave a comment and let me know what you think. I promise I will eventually post Best Day of My Life as soon as I’m in a place where I feel like I can write it, but that’s what I mean when I say in some of my more upbeat posts part of it is just being in the right mindset to really believe the words. Everyone has ups and downs even me. Especially me; It’s nothing to be ashamed of. I’ll see y’all next week.
Sincerely,
LIBD
