#MusicMonday (Still Dream by Woojin)

First off shout out to Woojin! If you love K-pop you HAVE to listen to this album. It’s so good, and there is not a single song I don’t like. I love how personal it is too. You can tell he really poured his heart into it, and that’s not an easy thing to do. I almost didn’t post part 3 because it’s scary to open up about struggles and life and be so honest about it. He did though and it’s great so make sure you check out his album. This translation is from klyricsforyou.com, so shout out to them as well for their amazing translations.

Even within danger
My dream has beautifully blossomed
It’s faraway but even in the darkness
There is always a way

I think people exaggerate the concept of dreams. I want to continue to dream though. Because without dreams, what is life? Life is inspired by dreams, and that’s why we need them. I think it’s important though, to be realistic about dreams. Dreams are meant to be lived, not achieved. Any second I’m blogging, I’m living my dream. Every riding lesson, I am living another dream. So, what if I’m not a world-famous blogger? Who cares if I’m not a Grand Prix level Equestrian? Have you seen how high those jumps are?! They look terrifying! I need to give myself more credit for every little step I take.

I know this but I’m always nervous
My days that are always headed toward you
Dance above the waves
But I, oh, I still
Still dream

I am a little nervous. It’s hard for me to wake up with a brand-new outlook because, as I expressed in the last post, what if it doesn’t work? I can make it work though. Today I worked with one of my favorite co-workers and worked more on this post! It feels good to enjoy life again, which means being content with growth, however small it may be.

Chorus: I’m shouting and running to you
Even if I’m falling right now
Fly, toward you

I know it won’t instantly be perfect, but hopefully, I can keep getting better, working harder, and dreaming bigger. The members of Oneus wanted to be idols. They became idols, and now their dreams keep getting bigger. Yes Ravn, Tomoons have been listening, and we will do our best to help you conquer billboard next.

Chorus continued:
Endless darkness chases after me
Even if it drenches my wings
Fly, even farther, I’ll go

Whenever I’m feeling down, I will think of Oneus and Woojin. They never gave up even when it got hard; eventually, hard work will pay off. For Oneus, it was their first music show win. For Woojin, it was making music again. For me…. More likes and follows. What can I say? I’m shallow, like a kiddy pool. I explained to someone yesterday that I have 106 email subscribers, but my brain doesn’t make the connection. It will always be just a place where I write down my thoughts and sort through my feelings. Whenever I get likes, I’m always like, “eh, it was probably just an accident,” lol.

Where am I? Where is the end?
It was a night when I desperately wanted to ask
But the answer is still
In the unknown tomorrow

The amount of work you have to put in to get where you want to go can be daunting. I’m tired just thinking about it. But I will take it one day at a time, at my own pace, believe in myself, and not think about other people’s standards, just like Oneus taught me. I know every K-pop fan says their favorite group is the best, but Oneus is the best. We are just waiting for everyone else to get on the train. Woojin, please, I need more music so I can love you more, but for now, have fun on your tour!

Even the mirage in the desert
Can be seen by those who dream
So I, oh, I still
Still Dream
[Insert Chorus]
Ooh oh Ooh oh fly higher
Ooh oh Ooh oh fly farther

So let’s do it, guys!! Let’s not be afraid to still dream amid the chaos and clutter of life. I want to be happy, and now I know how to do it. I still have a long way to go, but that’s okay because at least I’m going now.

My small wings are weakly flapping
It’s not enough to fly far ahead
But because you’re far away over there, I can’t stop
Because even the darkness will turn into brilliance if it’s you

I was making my author bio the other day, and everything I researched said the same thing. First: write in the third person. That’s right, the internet told me to, and I felt like a moron doing it. Second: Keep it short and sweet. Third: Establish credibility. Here’s the issue though… I have none!! I may just be me, but that’s not an insult. I’m still finding my way, is all. And that’s okay. And why is that okay, Oneus??? Because “A little slower not gonna hurt your vibe.”

I’m shouting and running to you
Even if I’m falling right now
Fly, toward you
Endless darkness chases after me
Even if it drenches my wings
Fly, even farther, I’ll go

More than anything else, I want to be nicer to myself. I want to stop accusing myself of being a failure because I don’t want to do anything some days. It doesn’t mean my life is ending. All it’s doing is taking away any chance of joy in my life. I’m lazy! I can’t help it, but maybe it’s time to love that part of me too, instead of being ashamed of it. Everybody needs to rest sometimes. Dreams are centered around growth. If you are growing, you are living your dreams. Woojin went through a really, really tough time before this album. I could write an entire post expressing my anger towards that situation, so I will just say this.

I think there are a lot of people who still owe him an apology. However, instead of apologizing, they just pretended as if nothing had happened. I would have given up if I were him, but he didn’t. Even after that, he continued to follow his dreams, and I hope I can be more like him. Learning Korean got extremely difficult, so I stopped and gave up. I hope I can be like Woojin and find the strength and courage to carry on, even when a situation seems hopeless. It’s okay to take a break because I was getting frustrated with how difficult it was, but it’s not okay for me to give up. Your dreams aren’t dead as long as you put forth the effort.

Living dreams doesn’t mean winning every music show. It doesn’t mean having a blog with thousands of likes, comments, and followers; it definitely doesn’t mean everything is going right. Living your dreams is when you don’t have a popular blog, you don’t win every music show, and everything is going wrong, but you keep moving forward despite all of it. As long as you are trying, you are living your dream.

Ooh oh Ooh oh fly higher
Ooh oh Ooh oh fly farther

Sincerely,
LIBD

#MusicMonday (Ready Now by Woojin)

Welcome to part 1 or 2 of my series. Does the intro count as part 1? Or is this part 1? Please let me know in the comments. This translation is from klyricsforyou.com. Their translation was the most readable. Because of how the Korean language works, I tend to pick the most readable translation. Often, translations that are too literal don’t always make sense. Thankfully, I found a good translation and didn’t have to do it myself. Let’s get started!

Now stop
Even when I yell out that it hurts
You smile and scar me again

Life is hard. I say it all the time, but it’s true. It’s been hard the past year. I cried, I got angry, I ignored it… Yet here I am writing this series. Another year of my life was wasted, and it’s all my fault. Yay.

The image of an ordinary person without a mask
That normal face scares me even more

Recently I’ve felt like I don’t know who I am. I’ve tried so hard to be…… however I should be, but I don’t even remember how. I try to be funny. Making people laugh makes me feel good for a few minutes. I try to talk to people, but I talk about myself, and I never know if I’m doing okay or if I should just shut up. I hate it.

(oh eh oh eh oh)
Every day, I’m struggling
To not lose to these dark emotions

It’s so hard. I just want to be happy and cheerful again, and I never thought I would say those words, but it’s true. I want to look forward to life again. I want to make my life something I can be proud of. I want to be the real me again, but I’m not quite sure who that is anymore.

(oh eh oh eh oh)
As I believe that this moment will surely pass
(Let it go)

It happened once, so I know it will happen again. I want to find the real me again. She was super awesome, and I miss her a lot. I hope she comes back soon.

This anxious night endlessly calls out to me
There’s a faint light inside that darkness

I can see the potential of everything life offers, but I feel like it’s just out of reach. Just do it, just live. Such simple words… so why is it so difficult?

[Pre-Chorus] This pain seems like it’ll last forever
I’m in my own hands, it’s the end

I got my meds adjusted, and I am feeling better. I know it takes time, but I don’t have time. I’ve wasted so much already. How long will I let life pass me by without doing anything about it? Doing nothing is so much easier though, and I just can’t seem to find enough energy to try.

[Chorus] Let’s clash against this together
I’m ready now (Hey Hey)
I’m ready now, It’s the end

One good thing is I’ve graduated from not caring at all to caring a little. I want to do better and feel like I can do better. I’m ready to be happy again and start chasing after my dreams again. I’m ready to be better, but I’m still waiting for it to happen.

[Chorus cont.] Put a brilliant end to the painful times
Cuz I’m ready, It’s the end
oh oh oh oh oh It’s the end

Like in my music Monday for Someday by Rob Thomas, I need to forget the past. Depression is a horrible disease that can ruin your entire life, but I’m starting to feel better, so I need to put my best foot forward.

I’m throwing a spark, not knowing it’ll grow bigger, yeah
The reasonless and cruel joke creates ashes in me
I find courage to say, please stop but
The quiet echo keeps repeating back to me

I feel like I’m back to the beginning. I have to learn to be happy all over again, but maybe I do. Perhaps I just need to remember how.

Hardships endlessly continue
And tomorrow keeps coming
[Pre-Chorus & Chorus]

Every day I struggle to do things just feels like another nail in the coffin. How am I supposed to follow my dreams if I can’t even bring myself to shower and brush my teeth? I understand how a person can be so horrible at doing life. Yet, here I am, amazing myself a little more every day in the worst possible way. The days just keep coming and going, and every day is another day I wasted.

Honestly, I’m still nervous and afraid
Afraid that I won’t be able to endure
Because it’s a difficult path
But still, I’m taking one more step

Honestly, I’m terrified. What if I’m never happy again? What if I never get back to normal? What if I just suck forever and die alone at the end of a long, meaningless life? I’m trying, and I know I’m getting better, but I’m tired. I don’t want to keep getting better; I want to BE better. I want to be the fun, confident Erin. Who didn’t care if she wasted 10 years of her life because, as Oneus says in their song Incomplete, “It’s okay if I’m starting a little later than everyone else”. Like Keonhee says in their song Life is Beautiful, “A little slower’s not gonna hurt your vibe”. Fun, confident Erin believed those things and lived by them. I want to believe again.

I’m putting an end to this pain
I’m starting again, yeah
From the beginning, just like new
So you and I can smile

What if I just chose to believe those things again? It’s almost midnight, but what if when I woke up tomorrow, I just believed again that it was okay if I started a little late? What if I started first thing tomorrow when I woke up? Not beating myself up for everything I don’t do. Appreciating the happy moments as they happen. What if I stopped trying so hard to be better and decided to just be?

Now I’m going forward
I’m ready now (Hey Hey)
I’m ready now, Let’s begin
Preparing for a new beginning
For that bright sun of tomorrow
Cuz I’m ready, Let’s begin

I’m not excited about life, but I’m excited for tomorrow. I’m going to stop trying so hard to be “normal” or “happy” and just live because, like Oneus says, “Life is Beautiful.” And Oneus would never lie to us, so it must be true. That’s my story, and I’m sticking with it.

I’m putting an end to this pain
So you and I can smile
Let’s begin

Tomorrow I’m not going to expect anything of myself. If I don’t brush my teeth, who cares?! It won’t be the first time; it won’t be the last time. If I do absolutely nothing… Fine, then! Just another day in paradise. And if I find something to smile about, I’ll smile, and if tomorrow sucks, I’ll be bummed and try again the next day. I can’t let myself continue to live every day feeling defeated by life before the day even begins. So, I’m not going to focus on being better. I’m going to focus on enjoying life. I think I lived my best life when I stopped caring so much about living my best life.
Thanks for reading, and I’ll see y’all in part 3!

Sincerely,
LIBD